looks can be deceiving.
looks can really be deceiving.

i cant stand it. there are so many evilness in this world.
more n more people that i've encountered. all i can say is i am disappointed. or maybe i should just grow up and live with reality.

so of course, there is only one who have hurt me deeply. but no need to reminisces abt that la. past is past. so that is really quite extreme. for someone like i trusted for 99.9999%. so anyway appearance and maybe even character can be a facade. or maybe everyone is. it only depends on how bad it is. on whether u are the victim or not.

so anyway
that day in school i saw this 2 girls who i think they are cute,innocent and pretty. so i was telling qi like who said that girls from that girl are all bitch and sluts. see this two! dont look mean to me at all. i even kinda like their looks. so sweet. then she was telling me those were one of the worst in the batch. they were actually those that started rumours and calling names behind backs. and okay enough already... eeww

then on the same day,
it was abt this model cousin of hers. who i thought was like okay model no big deal pretty face so should be well-liked by most people. wrong again. as i said maybe different people have different perspective. but i do not think like qi would criticise someone close relation to her like that? anyway all abt the bad attitude of the girl who think she is so pretty. stucked up. and materialistic. i know anyone can be materialistic. but i dont think i will suck up dry my parent's money for a pair of shoes or material stuff. plzzz... where is all the filia piety thing? she does not know her limits and all. sigh. even hl, one of the most innocent ppl i know, say bad things abt her. oh..guess the model girl is really rather terrible to get all these bad comments abt her from everywhere. slutty, loose , vain, hopeless............... -_-" and even her mother is the same. short skirts low cut tops dirty language. sucky.

then it reminds me of other incidents.
like some phoney girls who pretend to be cute and sweet towards guys. but entirely different towards their own girl friends. sickening. and guys just cant see it. all they ever say is "no la, she cant be like this. you just dont know her well" oh please. i hate explaining to guys. they think all innocent looking girls are damm great. but if you tell a girl to see things for you. they can sense everything.
just like maybe a girl dont like you and give you attitude. and you try to tell the guy that ur feeling uncomfortable abt this becos he is totally oblivious to the fact that e girl is staring at you or whatever. if you try to tell him that. he think you are jealous or trying to create problem between friendship. so whatever. what you say, you become the bad guy instead. if you tell a gf to see whether ur paranoid or is it the truth. she'll sense the same thing as you. thats what makes gf more lovable. :)

but anyway trying to get the whole world to love u is impossible. hate comes from anywhere. but trying so hard and get little out of it. is just not worth it. is "face" really that important? to sacrifice friendship or love? try living ur life truly. some things lost u'll never get it back again